This is the second part of a grief writing in Virginia. See the first part here. I’m not always good at endings. I’ve had to consciously work on accepting them for many years. By creating a mustard ceremony to mark the completion of my grieving process, I was able to anchor an ending for this… Continue reading Mustard Ceremony: The End
Paul's Plot: mustard patch at Namah in Virginia. Almost six months since Paul’s death I am sitting at Paul’s Plot – a beautiful patch of mustard. Bright yellow and full of bees stocking up on pollen, I feel blessed. The vivid yellow brightens my mood and delights my senses. My friend Jabari planted mustard seed… Continue reading Paul’s Mustard Plot
Another writing on my grief process, 2 months later. One of Paul's favorite things was making syrup from the Sugar Maple trees in Vermont. I notice that Paul’s personality is very similar in ghost form as in life. We are very different in our approach to life. I am slower, trust intuitively in right timing and… Continue reading Do Not Grieve Me; I Am Happy!
A few weeks ago, my friend saw a vision of me emerging out of a graveyard with dirt on my face. Like I was rising out of my grave. I was. I felt like I died too. My boyfriend, Paul, unexpectedly passed over one month ago. As you can tell, it has been tough. Something died inside.But maybe… Continue reading Nuggets of Gold
Yesterday was a really hard day. And, twice I reminded friends not to grieve for me... be in the JOY of life. Your happy energy is more helpful to me than having you diving deep down to meet my grieving heart. I need you on land pulling me back up when I’m in the deep… Continue reading Lighting Up with Love
Fort Vancouver Garden where Paul volunteered as a Master Gardener. Note: This post is a personal post to move through the passing of my boyfriend of one year Paul on Monday, November 2nd. Like the movie scene with Meg Ryan “I’ll have what she’s having,” Paul always wanted to go where I went. Whether it… Continue reading I Want to Go Where You Go
Camilla & Paul Note: This post is a personal post to move through the passing of my boyfriend of one year Paul on Monday, November 2nd. I’m going through my first really hard day of grief from the passing of Paul, my beloved. I am drumming, moving, and keening loudly. It’s the only way to… Continue reading Good Morning Beautiful