Another writing on my grief process, 2 months later. One of Paul's favorite things was making syrup from the Sugar Maple trees in Vermont. I notice that Paul’s personality is very similar in ghost form as in life. We are very different in our approach to life. I am slower, trust intuitively in right timing and… Continue reading Do Not Grieve Me; I Am Happy!
https://youtu.be/_DOsUipgpeQVideo 20 minutesThis essence was co-created with elemental nature spirits, spirit guides, crystals at the Columbia River exactly on the portal of Winter Solstice 2020. (See photo. The water elementals and devas showed their “fingers”.) And, it was placed under the conjunction of planets Saturn and Jupiter in the night sky so it carries the… Continue reading Video: Age of Aquarius Essence
Gnome Alone on Christmas? Feeling wrapped up in a holiday you can‘t relate to? Need an antidote to Toxic Positivity or Hallmark Christmas movies? Want to approach Christmas without masking what you really feel? Let’s Be Real. Christmas has always been a loaded time of year for me and this year I find myself wanting… Continue reading Gnome Alone on Christmas?
‘Tis the Season for Inner Journeys, Self-Care, Rest I’ve been in retreat as this time of year always pulls me deeper and deeper within. Even when I try to make plans or enter the celebratory array, plans change. And, I stay in my cave. Some of this is the result of being an earth &… Continue reading Happy Winter Solstice 2020
Learn about the magical origins and new fairy alliances formed out of the Fairy Congress event.This is a recording of a special Earth School free community event where we hung out and connected with my magical Fairy & Human Relations Congress friends and event fairies.The Fairy Congress is an amazing event I've been part of… Continue reading Video: Fairy Congress Magic
A few weeks ago, my friend saw a vision of me emerging out of a graveyard with dirt on my face. Like I was rising out of my grave. I was. I felt like I died too. My boyfriend, Paul, unexpectedly passed over one month ago. As you can tell, it has been tough. Something died inside.But maybe… Continue reading Nuggets of Gold
Yesterday was a really hard day. And, twice I reminded friends not to grieve for me... be in the JOY of life. Your happy energy is more helpful to me than having you diving deep down to meet my grieving heart. I need you on land pulling me back up when I’m in the deep… Continue reading Lighting Up with Love
Fallen leaves (maple, fig, apple) and a marigold flower too. I felt pulled outside into the sunshine and to my fairy garden with its dead flowers and plants. As if The Elementals and Faeries were leading me there. I broke down remembering all the gardening Paul and I did together. Then I noticed the amazing… Continue reading Fallen Leaves for Letting Go
Fort Vancouver Garden where Paul volunteered as a Master Gardener. Note: This post is a personal post to move through the passing of my boyfriend of one year Paul on Monday, November 2nd. Like the movie scene with Meg Ryan “I’ll have what she’s having,” Paul always wanted to go where I went. Whether it… Continue reading I Want to Go Where You Go
Camilla & Paul Note: This post is a personal post to move through the passing of my boyfriend of one year Paul on Monday, November 2nd. I’m going through my first really hard day of grief from the passing of Paul, my beloved. I am drumming, moving, and keening loudly. It’s the only way to… Continue reading Good Morning Beautiful